...So I Waited

I often take the time to process life circumstances through meditation, thought and reflection. It’s a good thing to do. This stream of consciousness came to me early one morning and for the sake of always being transparent and open, I wanted to share.

…SO I WAITED

I loved you, but you were otherwise preoccupied with other things...

So I waited.

Graciously loved you still as you made your colossal mistakes, letting them repeatedly slide off the roof of our connection...

And I waited.

Waiting for you to pick me as next in line for your attention, priority and love. I asked and asked and asked and asked and asked…

And I waited.

Aggressively protected your image to others blindly believing what we had was real…

And I waited. 

I continued to scrounge the remaining pieces of my soul and heart after every rejection, neglect and dismissal…

And still, I waited.

I fed you for free my body, my soul and spirit to manage and satisfy your soul hunger, believing it would preserve me until you were ready…

And I waited.

Waiting for the final moment that would reveal who I was to you…

I waited. 

All of it, every last ounce of what I gave: the insurmountable vats of love, hope, belief, endless grace and patience, left me

...weighted.